Monday again!

Well.. in the last week I've bounced from 200.2 down to 195lbs!!!!!!!! So I'm claiming the lower number till the next time.

Water really affects my weight........

Also, I can eat as much hot buttered popcorn as a I want........ (this is not good)

I don't really have anything to say, but I needed to post something so that you all wouldn't think I've disapeared.............

5 weeks from today I will be in sunny (I hope) Daytona FL.... and HOPEFULLY down 6-10 more pounds..... but I doubt it.

This was me 3 years ago in Daytona on the boardwalk with my bike........ I was in the 180's then too.......... (the end of my last trip down the scale)

I can not tell you how many times in the last 3 years that this pic made me cry.... as I was SOOO far away from it..... not this year... THIS YEAR I'm BASICALLY RIGHT BACK to 2005.

Yeah.. I pissed away 3 years, but not so much..... I am back and this time its for good!

I can't wait to post the 2008 pose.

Happy MLK Day

No school for the kidlings, No daycare open, No boss = me MUST be at work... hassle hassle.
Scale bounced up a few. I expected it.

I have found that since my tiny unfill (.3cc) that I can eat food, so I AM........
Yesterday I had tater tot casserole and dairy queen...... NOT A SMART MOVE, but honest.

So..... this morning after I had weighed and I was in the shower thinking about the day before me... the famous words..... "I have a dream" came to mind...... I HAVE A DREAM TO SEE 150 lbs........ hell, I have a dream to see 160 ANYTHING.

So... Tracy can eat food again........... so how do I achieve this dream WHILE eating food?

By getting back to my roots.... NO NOT HAIR COLOR!

My dieting roots........ LowCarb.

Let me clarify: ATKINS INDUCTION LEVELS to me mean.
I AIM for 20 carbs a day.... that NET carbs (carbs - dietary fiber=net carbs)

Oh and I refuse to count the carbs in my coffee, but I do use SF creamer and no other sweetener.

I started the day out good......
Coffee w/sf creamer
Breakfast: OhYeah Wafers (210 cal, 6 net carbs)

Lunch: I kind of freaked out because nothing in my office stash can be considered TRUE LowCarb (WC oatmeal, HealthyChoice Soup, Cambels Tomato Soup) Not one of these choices would keep me under 20 carbs.... perplexed.. I posted on lbt, filled up my 1 liter water bottle and re-evaluated my choices while drinking it......... afraid of blowing it..... afraid of the big 2 on the scale........ hmmmmmm

1 liter down, and still feeling actual hunger pains (hadn't had hunger pains in a LONG time) I decided that I would opt for a second round of OhYeah wafers......Safe.. I don't have to leave my office, and won't even stick my head into the break room......... so
Lunch: Another round of OhYeah, 210 calories, 6 net carbs.

Working on my 2nd liter of water as I type this........

Dinner: GOD HELP ME.. is still TBA!

I CAN DO THIS!
I AM STRONG!
I AM GOING TO STICK TO PLAN Today!
I AM GOING TO REMEMBER TO SPELL CHECK BEFORE POSTING! :)

Have a good one peeps!

Raining w/a Chance of Snow

Blahhhhhhhhhh Winter be gone already!

Ok....... so the last two days I've managed to get in 3 liters of water during work... I have also managed to eat PERFECT at work. Once I get home its a different story.. the struggle begins.

Last night.... DH brought home THREE kinds of ice cream... Dibs, IceCream Sandwhiches, and Regular......... I caved, I felt guilty, I watched the Biggest Loser while eating it, I felt like a big fat fake............. so what did I do, I went into the kitchen and started eating ritz crackers topped with real butter. EMOTIONAL EATING SUCKS. BL was two hours long so I did manage to do some leg lifts, lunges and stretches....... but not enough to undo the damage.

This my friends is my DANGER ZONE... I have been at this juncture so many frickin times in my life......... call it complacency, call it self sabotage, call it being a dumb ass....... EACH and EVERY SINGLE TIME I get in the 180-199 lb range I backslide, then once I hit the big "2" I am in a all out spiral back UP the scale. I am writing this in a public blog because...

THIS TIME IT IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!
THIS TIME I AM GOING TO GET BELOW MY DANGER ZONE!
THIS TIME I HAVE HELP, (my crazy ass nadine, my band)
THIS TIME I AM NOT GOING TO WAKE UP MONTHS LATER FROM MY CARB COMA and top the scales...... DAMMIT NOT THIS TIME!

This is WHY I chose the band......

Today:
Coffee w/sf creamer
Weight Control Oatmeal w/2% milk

3 liters of water is the goal

Breakfast for dinner (eggs, bacon)

Have a great day peeps!

OK... time for getting serious

Water, Water, Water.... I must drink water!

Closing in on my 2nd liter of water.........
What I've had today:

Coffee w sf creamer
1 spoon of peanut butter
OhYeah Wafers (breakfast)

1/2 cup of taco meat mixture (ground pork, beans, cheese and salsa)

At home in the crockpot..

Chicken breast, diced tomatoes, and italian seasons.........

GOAL: Stay AWAY from the Girl Scout Cookies~~~
GOAL: Drink 3 liters of water
GOAL: Get to 189 by March 1st
GOAL: Get the invitations Done
GOAL: Dont kill the 12 year old for going to the nurses office for the 4th day in a row!

ONEderland!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can not even begin to explain to the skinny biotchs out in the world how much this means to me........ unless you've struggled over 200 lbs you won't get it, but to ALL my kin who do!

Can I get an AMEN????????? shakeit shakeit shakeit

Bit the bullet and had an UNfill

I had to face the fact that I was too tight!

I was scolded for letting it go so long, but dang it........ I wanted ONEderland,
they took out the amount of my last fill, which was a minute .3cc's and I can already tell that it has helped! It is amazing to me that such a little amount can make the difference between milk gurgling back up and not. (yes, I actually had problems if I drank my milk too fast)

It is a hard fact to face.. I mean.. I KNOW that being too tight can cause problems and will cause you NOT to lose weight... but it is hard when you are staring at the damn scale and it REFUSES to go to ONEderland........... (speaking of which...... 200.4 today) INSERT CUSS WORDS HERE

I want to thank those of you who have sent me messages or made comments, I truly didn't think anyone but ME read this thing....... :)

I hope to make ONEderland next week...... but who am I kidding... I want it TOMORROW!

Sweet Dreams and Smaller Jeans!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I bounced to 202 this morning........ maybe a bit much JUNK mixed with a few DRINKS and ofcourse the REAL culprit.... NO WATER.

SO...... today is goin to be a WATER day..and I'm doing good right now... nearing 40oz for the day.

Also, I'm cutting out the crap today and hopefully for the next two months. I'm going to try and shed 15-20 lbs before the official "wedding" March 1st.

Water and No Crap eating...... and hopefully Tracy will be a skinny 180.

Today's food:

coffee w/sf creamer

1 protien slam (jello shot like)

100 cal, 0 carb, 0 sugar, 27 protien

Lunch will be an OHYeah wafer, or maybe soup......

WATER WATER WATER

Sweet Dreams and Smaller Jeans!