Toying with a slight Unfill SCAREY

I did it.................. .4 cc is gone......... and my stomach actually GROWLED!!!!

I am not going to lie.. I am freaking out about feeling actual hunger again.

My band has been the total FREEDOM from hunger pains.....

By my calculations I started today with 3.7 cc's in my band, she took .4cc's so that leaves me 3.3 cc's! AHHHHHHHH this basically takes me back to OCTOBEER 2007 fill levels....... ok.. heres a vent...........

See..... I've been frequenting the Low Carb Friends /Atkins Friends forumn since 1999...... it was small and a totally different layout.......... but it was on LCF that I found a home... and hence my first trip DOWN the scale......... getting down to 172 lbs..... all by doing STRICT, and I MEAN STRICT Atkins Induction levels for a year.......... I got happy, lazy and BAMMM! Regain #1............. back up to 256........ 2003, did it again, and again in 2005....... so going into 2007... I decided to get a lap band installed to HELP with the maintenance and losing again......... FILL FILL FILL I screamed........... then I got too tight... and I stayed TOO tight during the holidays 2007 because I was AFRAID of gaining .. by January I HAD to get an unfill..... my husband was pointing out how ridiculous it was that I was not eating and if I did eat.. it would not go through........... so January I had .3 cc taken out and it was the difference between sipping broth and food........ but lately.... I've been having heartburn like crazy.. and NO... I haven't been flushing my pouch or any of that.......... and I CAN eat crunchy tacos, nachos, thick soup and crock pot meat............. but a friend emailed me and said that she had really bad heartburn and could eat more than she thought........... she went in and found out that she had stretched her esophogus and he totally UNFILLED her so that she could heal for 5 weeks.

THIS FREAKED ME OUT............... so after last night having really bad heart burn....... and 1/2 a bottle of rolaids later..... (and I wore size 10's yesterday) I decided that I would go get an unfil today........ I LOVE LOVE LOVE MY BAND and I don't want to hurt it or make it to where I have to get unfilled... (yeee gawds thats scarey)...........

Now......... 3.3 cc's in a band that is marketed to hold 4 cc's is still way more than the average joe.......... but for me...... I know that I will be able to consume things I shouldn't............ but my hope is that I will BE A BETTER Low Carber! ...........

and I gotta tell you when my stomach growled... I about cried....... MY STOMACH HAS NOT GROWLED AT ME IN A YEAR!!!!!!!!!! but then after I freaked out... I looked at the clock at it was 11:30 a.m. (DUH Lunch time.. I SHOULD BE HUNGRY) but I don't like it one bit.

I am being 100% honest here......... my husband, told me to snap out of it, because he pointed out.. its not like 95 lbs is going to jump back on me.. I can always go get more fill if I feel I need it....... and friends on other forums can attest to the fact that as little as .1 cc can make a difference........... AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

OK.. I'm done now.

the good thing is the docs office was extremely happy with my loss because to them I'm down 25 lbs since January when they last saw me........

OH and AF is due today............ so LOVELY water retention here I come!