Wednesday, July 15, 2009

So...... I've regained


Lets see........

today 214. This shit has got to stop. Do I need a FiLL? HELL YES

Did I call for a Fill? Hell NO

Have you been eating slider Foods? HELL YES
Have you been eating ice cream daily? F'ng YES

OK... so I'm back to blogging.... facing my violets on LBT and facing the scale.

I need to take a different approach I guess....

2.5 years banded and yes I'm happy that the capris I'm wearing today are 14's, but I am so pissed off at myself that my size 10's WAYYYYY to small.

Here is a head shot of me...... TODAY.. a few minutes ago......

Look at how fat my face is compared to my profile pic up in the corner of this page.

I need to pick myself up and get a f'ng grip

Here we go.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Day 2

Yesterday.. the first step in my On the road again adventure.......
Yesterday scale 211.2, Today 209.4..........

Yesterday I managed to NOT eat any ice cream....

I had
1 pot of coffee w/creamer
3/4 of a protein bar
hunks of cheese when I got hungry
3 big glasses of CL (liveactive)

After work I took the boys to Sonic.. I GOT NOTHING... not even Dt. Dr. Pepper.

Dropped Cody at scouts and went to the store to stock up on "healthy" Tracy stuff......... It was 9pm by the time I got home and I was starving........

I ended up having a frozen Calorie countdown (I had put some in the freezer) and then about 1/2 cup of cottage cheese w/pepper......... it was enough to settle my tummy for sleeping.

So far today......

coffee w/SUGAR FREE creamer
the last of the left over Protein bar (about 1/4)

I brought in thin sliced deli meat and plan to make wraps with the cheese.... (dipped in ranch) the key will be slow slow slow........

Also, I stocked up on Crystal Light due to the sale at the store and the coupons I had...... so I'm set on that route............

My first goal is to get back into ONEderland......

I have a band meeting tonight......... I guess I better go... I just hate feeling like a failure to all those NEWBIES......

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

On the road again

Why is it so hard to get back on track????

Today..... another start.... 211. A fellow wayward bandster saw me last night and the first thing she said...... "I'm so glad I'm not the only one who's gained weight"

We compared notes on what we ate yesterday... and regrettably it was much the same.

She had
Chocolate Milk
Sleeve of Ritz w/topping
6 pack of donuts

I had:
2-3 butter cookies
about 8 Ritz crackers
Various bits of candy through out the day
1 large Chocolate Shake
5 chicken nuggets
Oh and add to that........ Cherry Koolaid, and Dt Dr Pepper

All my fabulous clothes from last summer (the size 10's) do not fit.....
My gym membership expired (not that I used it)

So today...... 211.2
I made a choice.... DO SOMETHING.. DO ANYTHING...

I am not prepared...... so I grabbed a block of cheddar cheese out of the fridge and stuck it in my purse, and then I stopped at 7eleven and bought the lowest carb protein bar they had........

Seen HERE



This is me............ trying once again to climb aboard the losing train....

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Trying to get back

207 today......... a new high! SUCKS!!!!!

However, today NO Ice Cream
TODAY, NO nacho's
TODAY, I play by the rules
TODAY, I start losing again.
TODAY dammit..... TODAY

Monday, May 11, 2009

Has it REALLY been January since I posted?!

HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!

Slippery slope I tell ya!

I'm still here, I'm still banded and I'm still in my personal hell.

I have been fighting a desparate game of head games and back sliding....... I am back up 200 - 206 on any given day............ a long way from 174, but really.. not that far if I'd get my head out of my ass.

I did join my company softball team.... and it is the most exercise I've had in two years.... I am going to try an NOT eat ice cream every day....... yes... I've been closet eating the evil IC 1-2 times a day........ tonight it was dinner.

I busted a zipper in my size 10 capri's yesterday and I can see the fullness in my face........... WHY do I do this to myself???????? Why don't I drink water, why.. that bitch the fat girl in my mind is winning right now...... its time to kick her ass and get my head back in the game.

It is hard for me to be inspirational right now........ a lot of pressure.... so I guess learn from me.... yeah yeah....... I'm NOT 272 NOT size 24 NOT MORBIDLY obese... but I am a woman, banded two years an fighting complacency and cheating myself........ I am tight enough........ if I stuck to the rules I would only be able to eat small amounts........ but ice cream and nachos's.......... well those things go right down.........

Know that I am going to get my head out of my ass.......... soon....... My mom is doing GREAT!!!!!!! she looks great......... down from 280ish to 230ish.... I am so happy for her....... I love my mommy and I want her to be healthy for many years to come........ I need to remember the rules........ and get back under 200 and back to those size 10's and lose size 12's

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Friday, January 9, 2009

Getting My Groove Back

Hello! I'm proud and happy to say that I feel like I'm back in my loosing "Groove". My resolve, my fire, my DESIRE to stick to a LC plan has returned. As promised in my final 5day test.. I like the quick video snippets. Here is today's
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Friday, January 2, 2009

Happy New Year

Today I started the 5 day pouch test...... I started on Friday 01/02/09, I will log in and update for the next 5 days of this reboot diet. A group of my Violet Sistahs are doing it.. so here we go....
videoI shot this with my phone so the quality is poor. I am up in weight....... but today I'm rebooting myself, and this will be my acknowledgement in the process! Pouch Diet Day 1
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DAY 2 Pouch Test


videoAll of these are shot with my phone.... it's easy to upload but the quality is poor! Stay Tuned! Today I have a baby shower AND a Holiday Party to attend! I WILL BE TESTED

Day 3 - Soft Protien


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Day 4 and I'm down 2 pounds a total of 8....


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Day 5, Solid Protein


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Low Carb Sausage and Pumpkin Soup from the 5day website


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Recap Video 1


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Recap Video 2, Down 8.5 lbs


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Final Words


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