HELLO SWEET SPOT!

Full restriction is BACK! Hallefreakinluha!

Scale this morning 206 lbs (1 more Turkey Weekend pound to go)

I WILL see Onederland by Christmas.. this is my goal... but I suck at goals! :)

I made a crock pot chicken catchetorie thing yesterday and although the meat was super tender I didn't eat much of it because I got really irritated with all the chewing.. (SPEED EATING ISSUE) so I ate the veggie sauce and about half of a baked potato.....

People ask what is the hardest thing about being banded......

I guess the fact that your brain must continue to be in "diet mode". Diet Mode, Diet Mode, Diet MODE......... my entire life has been in DIET MODE....... it sucks... but that is me.....

The easiest thing about being banded............
I actually get full after 1 taco or 1/2 bowl of oatmeal.......... the fact that it is 10:30 a.m. and I've not had anything yet to eat today and I am not flopping around on the floor like a fish out of water.. (Yeah, I know its not good for my metabolism to not eat in the morning) The FREEDOM FROM CONSTANT HUNGER....... well it's almost orgasmic.

OK>>>> all for now

Tuesday is CTC Day

My list of fellow Shrinking Violets (on LapbandTalk) have deemed Tuesday's and Thursdays as
CUT THE CRAP DAY(s)......... So today is CTC day.... so far I'm doing OK.

After my tweaker fill yesterday... I've been on liquids... Today (SO FAR) I've had
Coffee w/sf creamer
Protein Bullet
About HALF of my bowl of Turkey Pot Pie Soup..... (I dumped most of the chunks in the trash)
ONE glass of Crystal Light.. (I really need to drink more water/crystal light)

and if I'm really honest.. I did have a tiny nibble of a peanutbutter cornflake cookie this morning..... (this is the CRAP I'm trying to steer clear of) but otherwise so far so good.

I've read that restriction is a funny thing and sometimes just messing with your fill can take away great restriction... I will know if my SWEET spot is back tomorrow when I try something other than soup.....

Guess what......... I've been banded 7 months........ I still feel like I'm learning my band.. and I'm trying to wrap my head around being smaller than a size 12.

I'm pretty happy in my 12's and that means this is my danger zone of complacency... now is usually the time when I start spiraling out of control jumping off the Atkins plan that I know works so well for me.................

OH well.. time to get back to the daily grind.....

I am THANKFUL that Turkey Day is over!

I gained over Thanksgiving weekend, but that said...... I did it to myself.

I KNEW I was going in for a fill today, so I pushed the envelope over the weekend... why do I do this to myself? Why did I eat everything EXCEPT turkey? (I knew turkey would get stuck)

Old habbits of entitlement creep in...... I knew my ass would be getting clamped down again so dammit I ATE the cornflake cookies and the biscuits and gravy......... LOTS and LOTS of gravy.

Cheat the band.... I am the smartest dumbass you will ever read! :)

I'm not really that mad at myself... because my little silicone fist is still in me, still there waiting patiently to tell me that she is the boss............ and I am on liquids for 36 hours... Tomatoe soup and a protein bullet is on my menu for tonight.

Even though my scale told me of my failure, my doc was more than pleased with my overall progress........ and my size 24 jeans have long since gone to goodwill and the size 12's that I picked up for myself on black friday look mightly fine on me today...... albeit a little tighter than they would of been last week........

The best part is KNOWING that by Spring time....... they too will be in the goodwill pile!
PRICELESS!